The one way to get thin is to re-establish a purpose in life. ~Cyril Connolly,
The Unquiet Grave
I'm sick of being overweight. Okay, I know I said earlier that I feel better about my body than I ever have, and that is true most of the time, but-I just don't feel good. It's not so much how I look, truly. I just don't feel healthy. I realize that I have poor eating habits and I don't move as much as I should, and therefore I am not healthy and I have no right to feel good. I have been trying to find the balance between living life to the fullest, (enjoying it's bounty and savoring every moment) and having a pure and disciplined lifestyle (exercising and a nutritious diet). I have been fighting the never-ending uphill battle with a varying degree of commitment for over 20 years. However, at the root of all the excuses lies one simple truth. My priorities have been sorely misaligned. Self-indulgence and immediate gratification have taken precedence over what I know to be the true purpose of this miracle called life. Loving and learning. We are here to love and to learn from each and every experience that makes up our daily existence. But that takes a certain amount of courage. While I have loved and learned enough to be relatively happy, I have let FEAR hold me back from my full potential, and gluttony has been my consolation. Sadly, it has also weighed me down. But on this day, there is hope. I have this day and all the days that remain to 're-establish my purpose in life'. I can let go of the fear and the remote control, and I can begin to follow my true and authentic calling. After all, if I've learned one thing, it's that dreams can be delicious.
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